Im welding this door!

Greetings again all, I be writing drunk again. So am therefore less responsible than usual for what I say/do/sodomise.


First, recent events:

Easter Weekend In Review...Blarg!

Well the easter weekend was a pretty bad blur. Friday night went to a friends good friday party. Aside from catching up with people, which is always good I really do hate the whole pity "so are you happy?" and "so you still haven't got a girl?" crap, It could drive a man from sanity, if I weren't long gone already. so aside from that and the usual drama at parties, I hate people. (though I did get the lovely experience of a friend being so stubborn as to his state of inebriation that I ended up with vomit on my car..yey)

Saturday was a different experience however, had a friend visit from  (you know "that" place..yeh) and so had a few drinks and caught up with them (despite how weird it was, I think I enjoyed it..my encounters with this person are always awkard). Continued to stay up long after everyone else was in bed, drinking and gaming, and as a consequence was far too tired to join the family on sunday for zombie jesus luncheon.

So ensued the smart thing obviously, sleep..NOT! of course I stayed up and drank myself into a stupor all day, yes. I. did.

I think nothing else eventuated that night. but yes, off recent events so much and now on to thoughts etc.


Reading This Will Give You Nightmares..or just lols..

Well I think I may be drinking too much, got into a bit of a stupor another couple of nights this week, and I can scarcely remember what day it is, I keep zoning out, and even forget what has happened when i'm stone cold sober. Now personally I think this is fucking glorious, and I love it. You see, obviously being so well adjusted and stable - I am incredibly inward and a thinker, I spend a lot of time in my head and as such its so very good when the chaotic cacophony in my head goes utterly silent. I no longer have to keep searching for a distraction, and can enjoy things in the moment. Now normally this would be a good thing because I could let loose and have fun with friends etc. But the problem is, when I drink alone, I don't feel guilty about how i've acted when i sober up, I worry far too much about who I become when i'm with my friends, so thusly, they can blow me and suffer the sober me.

 I think im starting to sober up and am running out of things to say, Actually had a good night I think last night, after trivia a few of us came back to mine and played some magic (which I haven't done in a while, but could have done without the fucking relationship D&M slowing up the game) but after a couple of them left I had a good sit down with two of my mates, played some League of Legends and FFXIII over some food. It was a good return to old times and really appreciated the distraction (because i was low on vodka that night :P)


So yeah..i'm rather lost atm but enjoying the solitude both socially and mentally. I'll leave you all now on a slightly better note.

Shut up woman get on my horse!

"Rita? Only she can make my monster grow ;)" - Zenhurak

Anhidonic, Narcissistic and Pantsless.